Writing and Fangirls

Okay~ So I suddenly feel like writing a post...

... but I completely forgot what I wanted to write about ^^"

Damn! I even had sentences prepared!!! >~< and they were perfect!!! >~<

well... acutally... it's not like I exactly forgot the topic... I still remember the topic... but I have no idea about the contents ^^"

How that works? I have no idea.. It just does okay!! >~<

*thinks*

*5minutes later*

Hmmm~~ it was that fb status... but what about it... hmmmm.....

*10minutes later*

Maybe I should get off my ass and start pacing instead................................... Nah! =3

*30minutes and a box of chocolates later...*

oh that's right!!!!!!!!! I Remember!!!! (<--- btw that's a wonderful song by Bang YooGuk-or-something-like-that and Yoseob~ =3 It's amazing~! =3)

Lol~ I already fb-ed this... so why do I feel the need to do it again...

well.. let's face it.... fb isn't like a blog... and I can't exactly go into insane details on there ^^"

SOO!!!!!!!!

LET'S START AT THE BEGINNING!!! x3

Well... I was on allkpop looking at the Seoul Tokyo concert or something like that... and then I saw on the side............

"JYJ's JaeJoong reveals his idea type!"

ofc~ being the instinctive fangirl that I am... I clicked on it...

but straight away I realise how silly that was.. because well.. I have watched sooooo many variety shows and he always reveals his ideal type.... "Pretty hands!"

so you think I closed the tab?

Well no....... ^^"  I am way tooo curious for my own good ^^"

and then I read this:

He elaborated with, “It seems that as time passes by, my ideal woman changes. Before it was, ‘I like those with pretty hands and feet’, but it changed a lot now. I would like it if her personality was random. I like woman who push and pull [play hard].“

I guess I wasn't exactly right... okay so sue me.. I thought celebrities won't change what they say to the public as their ideal type. Sue me... =P

So if was an insane fangirl...

and let me elaborate here...

I am insane and a fangirl..... but I am not an 'insane fangirl'!

Geez! There is a different get it right! I mean the insane in 'insane fangirl' describe the fangirl... but the insane in 'I am insane' describes me... see there's a difference! =3

(it makes perfect sense to me =3)

Okay so... let's continue with 'hypothetically' situation... IF I was an insane fangirl... my reaction upon reading that would be something like:

"ZOMG!!!!! JJ♥! That description is like totally a mirror image of me!!!!!!! ZOMG!! I am SOOOOOOO perfect for you!!!! I ♥ YOU JJ!!!!!!!!!"

Ofc~ seeing as I am actually only insane and not an 'insane fangirl.... I did not react like that....

Instead it was more like:

"... Cool story bro... ofc your ideal type would change.. but srsly I think you just broke the hearts of all the girls who worked so hard to get pretty hands ^^" Geez men. Never taking responsibility for what they say......"

As much as I love JJ~ I am not exactly deslusional enough to think that:

Our eyes met above the heads of the screaming fangirls. It was just for a moment but it felt like an eternity. I could see it in his eyes that he felt the same spark. A banner intervened. Our gazes were broken but the memory of it lingered. I know I will never forget the feeling of that one second of paradise.
That was 3 years ago when I was still a nameless fan among the crowds. To me that was our first meeting even if we never exactly 'met'. I smiled and remembered the day we physically met for the very first time...
My best friend's birthday was coming up and I was shopping for the perfect gift. I was so wrapped up in my thoughts I did not see the man that was rushing blindly in my direction. Nor did I see the collision course we were bound for until it was too late. I fell and braced myself for the impact. Instead of the cold concrete, I expected, warmth enveloped around me.
"Are you okay miss?" a handsome voice asked in concern.
I glanced up, ready to assure the stranger that I was okay. But all words died in my throat. It was like a piece of my memory had came to life. My gaze met those heavenly ones that haunted my every thought...
"What are you daydreaming about now?" my recollection was interrupted by the husky voice of my husband tickling my ear.
I smiled, "I was remembering how I first met you... my idol, JaeJoong..."

Excuse me while I gag.

Geez~ I am just so good at writing theses cheesy crap *gag* srsly maybe I should go write a oneshot *imagines it and gags* er... maybe not... as much as I am amazing at it... I really don't think it's good for my health. with all the gagging and stuff..... ^^"

SRSLY! This is what insane fangirls fantasies about... and despite the fact that I can write it, I do not fantasies about this type of cheesy happily ever after with idols/celebrities...

Darlings... The truth is. It's not gonna happen.

I mean (call me cynical) what are the chances that you guys will bump into each other in the mall and end up getting married a few years later.... I doubt he would even remember your name... no offense but they probably meet a lot of people and it's just not realistic.

Okay... I admit I do love reading fanfiction.. but the thing is to me they are just another story but with characters that I am already familiar with.. and I am a romantic at heart... I mean what girl doesn't dream about a guy saving them? (please don't say feminists ^^") I sure hell do.

It's just that... well... the chances with idols is er..... like 0.1%.. okay yesh it's still a possibility but sweetie the odds are against you ^^"

The things is idols/celebrities are wonderful... and even if we think we are 'in love' with them now... when we meet them and (if you are really lucky) get to know them.. the chances are they are nothing like how we imagine them to be.. and well maybe you will be in love with the real them.. but if don't then no matter how hard you try to hold onto your 'in love' ness for them, it will most likely fall apart.. and it will just break your heart...

So I guess basically what I am saying is.. sure go be insane fangirls.. daydream all you want (hell I do that all the time).. love your idols as much as you want.. but always keep one foot planted on the ground so if your dreams get dashed you will be able to land safely and not be lost in the world.

And do yourself a favour.. go out and find love instead of fantasying about love =3

♥W=3ndu