Yeah I wasn't at school today ^^" Thanx Abby for your concern =3
and Dior =3
No I was Jigging... my ankle was acting up 'cuz of the weather ^^" haven't you ever heard that old injuries (i.e. sprains, fracture, broken bones) ache when the weather is gloomy? Well it's true ^^"
Unfortunately... even though I was planning to do some serious ENGLISH work.. I didn't.. Instead my old bad habit was also acting up ^^"
I spend the whole day reading fanfiction ^^"
Bad W=3ndu!
But with that said..
Zomg! I have completely forgotten how atrocious the writing can be on fanfiction sites!!!! >~<
Haha~ But I did manage to find some amazing ones! =3
One is a Heechul fic.. but that one isn't completed.
The other is a JaeJoong fanfic =3 Oh JJ! How I adore you!!!! x3
And because this fanfic is sooo good.. I feel like I should give a bit of a W=3ndu
There's just one thing I want to complain about this fanfic before I start. The grammar is quite atrocious at some parts ^^" and there seems to be words missing at parts too ^^"
With that outta the way.. I have to say the plot is really good!
Although typically I prefer stories with deep and meaningful insights to the character's character, this fanfic gives an illusion of that even though there really isn't many delve-into-the-complicated-mind-of-the-character moments. Overall I don't have any complains about the characterisation.
But I just realised. The fanfic, despite being in the view of the characters, has quite a impersonal tone. That's probably why I don't reckon there was any deep and meaningful insights to the character's character even though I realised that the characters are quite realistic and there are moments of deep and meaningfulness. However the seemingly impersonal tone takes the edge of the moments for me.
To speak honestly about what happened....
!!!!!!!SPOILER!!!!!!!(well... the only spoiler is who she ends up with.. which should be pretty obvious anyway. ^^" and there are a few vague spoilers here or there but it is nothing major ^^" So really there isn't much of a spoiler ^^")
Don't get me wrong.
I love the fact that she ends up with JaeJoong. I love he changed his ways because of her and how deeply he has fallen in love with her. It's so sweet how he use to be so selfish, only caring about himself and hurting everyone, but at the end he was willing to sacrifice his own happiness to give her the chance to be happy - even if it is without him. I find that incredibly sweet.
However... The ending just felt really bitter sweet for me.
It's just... Yoochun. They both love each other. Yet neither one confessed. They both choose to give up on their feelings for each other at exactly the same time. I found that so sad. That part of the ending makes me feel like it's the prologue of some other love story because there are several stories that begin something like that. It almost made me forget about JJ. Almost. To me, it feels like both Yoochun and her gave up their chance to be with each other - their soul mates. Instead he choose to watch her be happy, and she choose to try again with her first love (who I might add, despite not being her soul mate, her 100% perfect guys, is like probably the 99.99% perfect guy for her).
When I close my eyes and try to imagine her future with Yoochun, I see something so bright like Sun. It feels like their relationship will be full of sunshine and laughter. But I guess the problem with that image is that: the weather is unpredictable. As we caught a glimpse earlier, Yoochun and her had a huge fallout - a tornado. For me, their fall-out/fight had one of the most personal tone in the whole story. So I guess in my mind if they ended up together, their relationship will be unpredictable and wild like the weather - one day will be full of smiling sunshine, the next day with be a raging storm.
When I picture her relationship with JJ, I see a meadow and leaves swaying in the breeze. Sure their relationship, in my mind, will not be as amazing and sunny as Yoochun and her's. But it will be peaceful. Because unlike the weather, even if the leaves all fall down it is still a peaceful thing. Yes I know at the start he and her was at each others' necks. But he changed so much and the ending of the story seem to suggest a really peaceful and romantic relationship but not something extremely passionate and fierce like what her and Yoochun's relationship could've been.
I guess in a way that what they, Yoochun and her, choose might have been what was better for them. Because, honestly in my opinion, their relationship together might have been amazing but the higher you climb the further you fall. Ofc, I do realise that they were both waiting for the other to give an indication. What I think is that they both wanted some sort of subconscious reassurance that it relationship of extreme passions will be worth it.
Well that is just my opinion. This is the first time I have read something which makes me so torn about who the character should have end up with. I do often feel bitter sweet about the ending, but I've never felt torn. Because I can see both positive and negative things about both relationships. And either way, the relationship would have been great. So I am just really torn.
So this is just some of my rant =3 Haha~ as you can see ^^" I am still think everyone has a soul mate =3
But just to add to what I said last time... I also think that being with your soul mate is always the best thing. Because the higher you climb, the greater the fall. Sometimes, even if there is an emptiness which creeps up once in a while, a peaceful relationship is more preferable.
P.S. Yesh... I decided to change the name of the post ^^" I didn't really like 'Torn' because I could think of so many other topics that could fit under it. ^^"
