Reminiscing.

Wow~

I am 17 already o.o

Well... Almost ^^"

Since I was born in the evening =3
... and it's not even 12 yet ^^"

But I am gonna post this early
... cuz I am not staying up to 12 ^^"

Hahhaa~ but its hard to believe that 17yrs ago I was just about to exist...

For some reason to me 17 sounds like I am already meant to be mature and an adult.

I feel old.

Reminiscing the past year makes me realize how much both me and the ppl around me has grown up... Well, not to say they weren't growing up before, but this yr it really hit me: we are growing up.

In the past yr:

• I got this amazing job with an amazing pay =3 which lots of friends are jealous of~

• I changed schools and became friends with some amazing ppl. At the same time I dearly miss the amazing ppl & friends from my old school

• I finally was able to squash my insecurity and acknowledged loudly that Penny & Shana & Alisa are my besties~

• I became my outgoing and sociable

• Alisa finally ended things with that thing.
I am overjoyed for her =3

• Alisa is now feeling better =3

• Shana realized (kind of) that jerk face is a jerk face... and is trying to settle things with him
(I hope you work things out!!!! Climb out of the RIVER!!!! You are heading for the waterfall!!!! ><)

• Shana did a lot of things that I wouldn't do ^^"

• My little cousin met my crazy friends =3
... and my crazy friends was in hysterics cuz my little cousin is er... normal and nothing like me ^^"

• I am always keeping the faith

• Merry~go~rounds are now a topic of discussion.. especially with Celine =3

• Jrock is now awesome =3

• I finally went to the Easter Show ^^"

• I finally got a CHARM BRACELET~!!! >w<

• I now have a guitar and is learning how to play it

• Alisa, Kimica, Penny, Shana & Yani formed a band 'Limit to Infinity' and performed at the Jesterfest~
(I am soooo jelly >< I wanna be in a band with my besties too!!!! ><)

• I bought tickets for the Sydney KPOP CONCERT~!!! x3

• coffee is amazing =3

• I am now friends with a lotta Scorpios =3
('cuz I literally had like <5 before ><)

• I got my Ls =3

• Penny got double eyelids ^^"

• Penny and Shana keeps doinking ^^"
(Shana!!! >< Stop cheating on me with the floor!!! XP)

• I now have uber short hair =3

• I started blogging again =3

• AND so many other things that I can't seem to remember ^^"



Somehow this sounds like something ppl write for New Years Eve ^^" 

Oh well~~ It's my Bday~ =3

So technically.... It is a new year for me x3




P.S.

GO RAPE THAT 2U HSC PAPER YOU HSC AND ACCELERATED KIDS!!!!!! xD

 ♥W=3ndu

For Alisa.

For Alisa,

I read your post. And it made me sad - sad and a bit disappointingly piss (not piss at you though). Yes I know and can understand why you would think we, the people you're the closest to, would not understand. But I am temperamental and that does not stop me from flaring a tad. Although the anger is not at you. It is rather the frustration that had build up in the past due to the exact same thing.

I know people will scoff at the claim that I was socially awkward; but it's the truth. And I am pretty sure I don't really seem like it but the truth is I was, and to some extend still am, very insecure. Even now I am still introverted and shy at times.

Like you, I have also tried to be outgoing and make friends. I tried to 'belong'. Yes. I do seem to have succeeded in this goal. But I never got anywhere by trying to fit in.

When I tried to fit in, I felt empty. Almost like I will never be of worth. And I don't want you, my precious friend, to feel this way. Yes, I know from your blog that you already kind of feel that way. So I want you to know that the harder you try to mold yourself in an effort to belong, the more empty you feel; no matter how many 'friends' you make.

I realized, from experience, that the only way to be outgoing and feel fulfilled, instead of empty, is to learn to accept yourself. Be content with who you are.

Of course I know it's a lot harder than said. It took me years. But one baby step at a time. I know you can do it. You have a lot of pride. So be proud of the wonderful person that is Alisa.

Despite what you seem to think, you are a wonderful person. You are not ugly. You are very attractive (I am saying this not because I am your friend but because I truly believe it's true). And you are a lovely person who is fun and caring and emotional. You just need to believe in yourself.

When you can embrace yourself, you will find that the world will embrace you.

"Those who matter don't mind. Those who mind don't matter."

Be yourself.
As cliche as it sounds, we love you for you.

 ♥W=3ndu

DnM

Gloria Jean the place where everything starts =3

Me and the girls sat there

Got a coffee

One thing let to another

And before me knew it

We were DnMing

And I kried... TT~TT

Usually I only get teary...

But I actually shred tears this time

I guess this means:

Shana & Alisa you guys are my besties =3

I feel comfortable with your guys

I can tell you guys anything...

And I do tell you things in my life that no one else knows...

I don't usually kry in front of ppl.. not at all

So the fact I kried in front of your guys

Shows I love yas~

And I am getting teary again ToT

I really miss yas TT~TT

And I will always be here for yas~

No matter how much of an idiot I think you are
... for getting and staying in the mess =3

I still love you~

And you can always kry on my shoulders...

And I will support you...

And tell you my most honest opinion
... even if it hurts

Gosh....

I sound soooo sappy ^^"

I blame it on the period and the DnM

But I still love yas =3

♥W=3ndu

>< Nag..... >< *sigh* sad...... happy.....?

Nag. Nag. Nag.

Yeah yeah. I haven't been on my blog, so? *sigh* seriously~ I just forget, 'kay? I mean I barely fill my diary up with anything. All you see is random pieces of paper with writing and writing and writing. == Bleh. I went off the topic? Mmm.... again.... ^^" like always...... ^^"

Oooooohhhhhh!!!!!!!! DBSK!!!!!!!! C=
The MC just said DBSK in that music festival thing~! =3

So sad....... DBSK going solo..... T.T They said that they are gonna focus on their solo careers so they won't be doing activities as a group anymore. In a year's time, they will decide whether they wanna continue/restart activities as a group..... That's soooooo sad T~T So they might disband? That's what forum people-thingys keep exaggerating. WILL THEY!? ><

*sad*

On the other hand.... I had a dream... My first dream in, like, 1/2-1 year~ *sighs and stares into the distance* It was a nice dream. C= A very happy dream. C= It made me feel very very happy~ The rest of the day after the dream, I felt like a child who have just discovered that the world is round! =3 The world is indeed very pretty~ c= Ah! I love that dream~ =D I won't mind dreaming it over and over again. It was a very happy dream.... very very happy............ c=

*smiling at the memories of the happy dream*

Oh yeah! Penny is back! ..... and my dad.....
I heard her voice before I saw her. In the morning. First thing she said to me: "Hold." Haha! Very nice~ =P Meanie~! =P She changed her hair~ It looks like what you can almost call 'princess-like-style-thingy'... the 80s, the 90s popular hairstyle...? =P
She brought us PRESSIES!!!!!!! =D PRESSIES!!!!!!!! =3
Lol~! Now I have a Super Junior M album~! =D Hahaha~!! It's gonna be ME~! xP Haha~! The only reason she got me that~ Haha~~ =D Funny~ =D
ShaSha got some weird girl/girl-group CD~~ Don't know who they are... @___@
Alisa got DBSK~! She just stared at it.... ^^" I think it was one of their newest ones? Don't remember which.... ^^"

Oh yeah! I finally have a poster of a real person/people!!!! HAAHAHA!!!!!!!! XD


And so yeah.... Happy? I posted it something. So my blog isn't dead..... yet.

Order of events of this post:
Present -----> past (2 days back) ----> farther into the past (3-4 days back) ----> nearer past (1 day back) -----> not really present but present ----> present