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WELCOME 2012!!!!!!!!!! xD

^lol~ that's 4days too late ^^"  oh well =3

I was doing very *cough* productive *cough* things during those 4days x3

Haha~ don't know whether you can tell =3  but I am in high spirits the moment! xD

ZOOOOMMMGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!! XD XD XD

*on Cloud 9*

okaii~ before you guys think I am more insane than normal (<-- not exactly sure what normal is =3but you get my drift..?) I will explain what is happening~ =3

Yeah!!! STORY TIME!!!!! x3

(I'm clear really high joyous at the moment~ =3)

ZOMG!!!!

INFINITE!!!!

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THEY ARE AMAZING!!! DAEBAK!!!!!!!!!

I am officially in love with them~♥! =3

Hahaha~ The thing is I knew of them... I was just never aware of them... ^^" if you get me~ =3

I mean I am avid reader of fanfiction and I have noticed that the tag: 'infinite' just keep climbing up the popular list... and now they are the number 1 group tag on Asianfanfics ~

I have seen all the review of EatYourKimchi and have thus watched most of their MVs... and when I watched it, I was like: "Wow~ Damn they are good!!!"

And I have definitely heard my friends talk about how good they were...

But up until now I didn't have a single one of their songs. Nor did I even know how many members they were.

Heck I probably checked them out when they first debuted (not that I remember ^^").

I just never really pay them any attention more than "Wow! They have good songs!" (Heck I didn't even have their songs!)

But a fanfiction changed that.

Normally I wouldn't read fanfiction of people I didn't know... but the fanfic was on the featured list and it sounded really good, so I read it =3

Lol~ I have to admit I was searching up the members as I was reading it... and I will share what I said at the time (actually I remembered I searched them up before too and had the exact same thought):

"THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME!!!!!!!!!!! o.o Srsly... Is it just me... Or do they look alike?
... oh~ but they all very very good-looking~♥ *w*"

Haha~ I never had a dilemma where I couldn't straight away distinguish the members ^^" but with Infinite I kept searching up the individual members but it always ends up being something like this:

"Oh~ He is really good looking~ x3  *searched up another member* oh~ very handsome too.... wait... wasn't he the guy before? *searched up another member* Mmm~ Good-looking too~ Wait... Isn't he the guy before and the guy before that!? O.O" *rage quits*

But now I can proudly say: I can distinguish them!!!! xD

And now looking at them... I have no idea why I was so confused ^^"  but at the time it made perfect sense =3

Haha~ but for some reason (Osh agrees!) I think SungJong, the maknae, looks like Taemin! No srsly! They really look alike! =3 SungJong is so cute~ Poor him... always getting abuse by the other members ^^"

And well... for some other reason.... I think Hoya looks a bit like Yunho... ^^"  I know Hoya's face is a lot wider than Yunho's... Yunho is a lot taller and also lankier... but I srsly think they look alike ^^"  and even some of their expressions and mannerism resemble! .... maybe it's just me ^^"

Lol at DongWoo's laugh! Kekeke~ =3 I love his laugh =3 I don't know.. but it makes me laugh xD  although I can't figure out why I am laughing =3  and he has the funniest reactions too! x3

Lol~ Sungkyu and his nagging~ x3

Sungyeol the elementary kid.. I have no idea why that's his nickname though ^^" him and his pranks~ lol~ xD

I love WooHyun and his fanservice~ =3 lol~ I know it's suppose to make fangirls squeal and faint from happiness... but it makes me laugh xD  Not because I am laughing at him but I just find it funny (does that even make sense?? xD) Haha~ he is 1 of my 2 favourite members =3ohhh~ and did I mention he was really nice arms xD haha~ pretty muscular x3

I know L is suppose to be mysterious and all.... but he remind me of a kid ^^"  lol at the members saying: "he has no presence" x3  haha~ I don't know why but he remind of a kid ^^" Sorry L ^^" but the name 'L' will always make me think of L from Death Note before I think of you ^^"  haha~ he is my other favourite member =3 I can't decide between him and WooHyun (although I know DooWoo comes 2nd x3  'cuz he just makes me laugh for no reason =3)

Anyway! Enough with the fangirling over the members!

Continuing with my narration! xD

I kept seeing fanfics of them... I guess that's probably what initially prompted me to get their songs...

And then I don't know.. I just felt like watching a show with them in it.. So I did =3

(Yeah for impulses! x3)

I found Seasame Player~ and I just felt like I should watch it~ =3

(Yeah! for instincts! x3)

So I did~ =3

And I am so glad I did~! x3  They are so funny~! x3 (and that's how I learned their names and faces.. although it take me all the way 'til episode 4 to get it right ^^") So far I haven't had a moment where I felt bored (which happens a lot ^^") which I have to say is really good sign seeing that (as much as I love them) when I was watching the B2ST documentary I was bored half the time ^^" (sorry B2ST ^^"  I still love you, more like especially your songs =3)

Haha~ and because I saw how amazing they were (mostly because they talking about their comeback) =3 I went and rewatched all of EatYourKimchi's reviews on them =3

And all their MVs =3

And all their debut and comeback stages~ =3

I have to say DAEBAK!!!!! x3

(soz to Alisa, if she's reading this, for all the koreabooness ^^"  is that even the right word??)

I am not obsessively crazy over them =3 which is a good sign =3  because it means I like them not because of image and the hype but because I actually like them =3

They are officially the first group besides DBSK (Always Keep the Faith~!) who I actually want to declare myself as an actual, official, fan of.. meaning that I want to call myself by their official fanclub name (i.e. I'm a Cassie.. or I am a B2UTY.. or I an a INSPIRIT)

I mean, anyone who knows will know, I really love B2ST.. but I will say I am their fan but I won't call myself a B2UTY.... do you guys get the difference (between being a fan and an official fan who goes by the official fanclub name)??

So for me actually wanting to acknowledge myself as an Inspirit is a pretty bid deal...It's a first since DBSK (who will be special to be for ∞ ~   xD like the pun?? xD)

Haha~ So yeah I really love them =3 but I am not crazy obsess with them (which is a good sign) =3

I guess now I am a Cassie... and an Inspirit?

lol~ I am still a bit reluctant to be an official fan of anyone else besides DBSK ^^"

I guess it's something I will just have to come in terms with~ =3

But for me... DBSK will forever be the best~ =3   I am not betraying them (just in case some crazy fan accuse me of it ^^"), I merely learning to walk forward and appreciate other great talents while still loving DBSK =3

Good luck INFINITE in the yr 2012!!!! x3 

To ∞!

♥W=3ndu

P.S. Is it just me.. or has basically all my post this holidays been fangirling posts???
QUICK! Somebody do something that I can post about that will not be fangirling!!!!!! >~<

Five Forever.

I don't even know why I am blogging about this.Since I kinda yell this out everyday of my life (that's an exaggeration - maybe not everyday).

I don't know. Maybe it's 'cuz I am bit emotional thepast3days lately.

Maybe it's 'cuz I went to Asianfanfics last night today.

Or maybe it's 'cuz one of their songs were playing few seconds ago.

Or perhaps it's because one of my friends mentioned them just now.

I don't even know.

What I do know is: I miss them. A lot.

I miss them enough to use full stops instead of '...'.

That's how much I miss them.

I love fanfics. That is a known fact.

But lately I can barely even stand to go into the fandoms of any of them.

I mean, I am the girl who scavenge-hunt thru fanfiction.net when Itachi died, when Hidan died, when Ace died, hell even when Kakuzu died just so I can read fanfics of them alive.

I guess it's just that I want them back together so much.

When I read fanfics of them being 5, I feel so sad and empty that they aren't actually 5 anymore.

When I read fanfics of them being separated as they are now, I feel sad and disappointed that even fanfictions are starting to accept their separation.

When I read fanfics of them miraculously finding a way to kick SM's ass and get back together, I want to cry because I want that to happen for real so much.

I guess I can never be satisfied unless they really get back together.

You know what the sad part is?

I only got into Kpop a few months after they started the lawsuit.

And by the time I became a fan, it was already to late to see them together because a few months later they officially split.

Maybe it's regret that I didn't ever got the chance to feel the anticipation of waiting for their new album/single/EP/mini-album come out.

I feel even sadder when I see: JYJ's JaeJoong or JYJ's Yoochun or JYJ's Junsu because to me they are still part of DBSK.

Every single time I see TVXQ I still expect to see 5 faces but instead I only see 2.

I guess nothing lasts forever.

But being the flawed human that I am, it's a not a fact that I am willing to accept.

I realise that it is probably hard on them too. I mean they are brothers who have been through thick and thin together for 9 years. They who had no friends but each other when they wandered into the foreign land of Japan and manage to make a legend out of themselves.

They must be the one taking this the hardest or maybe the shell is dry. Hell I don't know how they feel or the details of what really happened.

I try not to assume. But it's hard. I can't help but speculate. In my mind: they must miss each other so much since they have been brothers for 9 years. But for all I know their friendship might have fell apart. For all I know they could have sat down and discussed this. For all I know they could still be in communication.

Who knows besides them.

Of course, I won't deny that I have painted SM to be a villain in my mind. And I admit, for all I know they could really be angels. But the fact is looking at Hangeng's case and their lawsuit and the rumours it is hard to not paint SM as a villain. And the fact is the court have ruled in favour of both Hangeng and JaeJoong&Yoochun&Junsu against SM.

This makes it really easy for people to doubt the sincerity of SM and thus SM is a villain in the eyes of many fans.

Of course I know that there are fans who blame JaeJoong and Yoochun and Junsu for the split. And yes, I agree that if they never filed the lawsuit they will still be together.

But one have to question what happened behind the scenes?

And one have to question why Yunho and Changmin didn't join them?

These are question that we can never find the truth to. Even if all involve share their version of the story. Their truths will be different and thus each fan's truth will also be different. There will not be one truth but many. Which one you believe will depend entirely on your values and you as a person.

I don't ever think the whole story will be exposed. And even if part of the story is told there still might be untold parts. There are somethings that people don't share.

So if or when the story is told, I will listen but I will keep my mind open because there are always untold parts to every story.

That doesn't stop me from forming an opinion though. It's only human nature.

I can't promise not to judge but I can promise to listen and be flexible.

I think I went off track again.

You know what else makes me sad?

The fact that I don't have all of their songs.

It makes me feel like I don't have the right to say I am fan.

But I will get all their songs. I am determined.

Even though I said that, I still feel the sad bitter after-taste when I listen to their songs.  And that makes me afraid to get their songs for the sake of self-preservation. I am a coward and I know that.

But I guess that makes me even more determined. I might be coward but I am stubborn as hell.

It doesn't change the fact that they are split though.

Always Keep the Faith.

I will imprint those words across my heart.

But it doesn't stop me from feeling like they will never be together again. That makes a bit of a bad fan aye?

It just that my logical side keep reminding me that the chances of them being together is slim. The lawsuit is not quite over yet. Both SM and JaeJoong&Yoochun&Junsu are too stubborn to submit to the other. Unless they are willing to both win some and lose some then the chances are they are not going to be together anytime soon if ever.

But, with that said, my romantic side keeps repeating: "Believe." Believe that they will work some out and they will be together again.

Of course, my hopeless side keeps wishing that somehow a huge new company comes and somehow everyone is free from SM and they can be together again - like the fanfics.

I just miss them so much.

I miss them enough that I have not used any smilies throughout the whole post. For anyone who knows the way I type, they must know that this is a heck of an achievement.

It just shows how much I miss them as 5.

I will continue to support them as the 3 and 2 that they are now.

But in my heart and mind, they will forever be 5.

♥W=3ndu

Reminiscing.

Wow~

I am 17 already o.o

Well... Almost ^^"

Since I was born in the evening =3
... and it's not even 12 yet ^^"

But I am gonna post this early
... cuz I am not staying up to 12 ^^"

Hahhaa~ but its hard to believe that 17yrs ago I was just about to exist...

For some reason to me 17 sounds like I am already meant to be mature and an adult.

I feel old.

Reminiscing the past year makes me realize how much both me and the ppl around me has grown up... Well, not to say they weren't growing up before, but this yr it really hit me: we are growing up.

In the past yr:

• I got this amazing job with an amazing pay =3 which lots of friends are jealous of~

• I changed schools and became friends with some amazing ppl. At the same time I dearly miss the amazing ppl & friends from my old school

• I finally was able to squash my insecurity and acknowledged loudly that Penny & Shana & Alisa are my besties~

• I became my outgoing and sociable

• Alisa finally ended things with that thing.
I am overjoyed for her =3

• Alisa is now feeling better =3

• Shana realized (kind of) that jerk face is a jerk face... and is trying to settle things with him
(I hope you work things out!!!! Climb out of the RIVER!!!! You are heading for the waterfall!!!! ><)

• Shana did a lot of things that I wouldn't do ^^"

• My little cousin met my crazy friends =3
... and my crazy friends was in hysterics cuz my little cousin is er... normal and nothing like me ^^"

• I am always keeping the faith

• Merry~go~rounds are now a topic of discussion.. especially with Celine =3

• Jrock is now awesome =3

• I finally went to the Easter Show ^^"

• I finally got a CHARM BRACELET~!!! >w<

• I now have a guitar and is learning how to play it

• Alisa, Kimica, Penny, Shana & Yani formed a band 'Limit to Infinity' and performed at the Jesterfest~
(I am soooo jelly >< I wanna be in a band with my besties too!!!! ><)

• I bought tickets for the Sydney KPOP CONCERT~!!! x3

• coffee is amazing =3

• I am now friends with a lotta Scorpios =3
('cuz I literally had like <5 before ><)

• I got my Ls =3

• Penny got double eyelids ^^"

• Penny and Shana keeps doinking ^^"
(Shana!!! >< Stop cheating on me with the floor!!! XP)

• I now have uber short hair =3

• I started blogging again =3

• AND so many other things that I can't seem to remember ^^"



Somehow this sounds like something ppl write for New Years Eve ^^" 

Oh well~~ It's my Bday~ =3

So technically.... It is a new year for me x3




P.S.

GO RAPE THAT 2U HSC PAPER YOU HSC AND ACCELERATED KIDS!!!!!! xD

 ♥W=3ndu