Issued with Romance

So I was reading this interesting wattpad book that seeks out the opinions of the site users on various wattpad/internet problems and reading other people's opinions just sents my brain to overdrive. This really just means that there is a loud opinionated and sassy (cough, bit itchy, cough) running commentary in my head. Seriously, she's a devil, don't know how she escaped her cage...

Anyway the topic of 'Issued with Romance' (on the internet at least) really brings out the she-devil in me which obviously resulted in this.

Anyone who knows me or have read this blog or looked at my reading list on any internet reading site or whatevs is probably well aware of the fact that I am an almost exclusive romance reader. 

Ah yes, I can feel the judgemental stares. Whatevs. I am a girl and a romantic at heart no matter how cynical I may sometimes sound. Perfectly normal for me to like reading romances. 

But I feel the need to clarify. 

Yes, I like reading romances. 

Yes, I like the idea of romance. 

Yes, I am guilty of enjoying Mills and Boon (come at me judgemental stares!). 

Yes, I sometimes seek out cliche stories on purpose. 

But, do I actually like the romance stories I read? Mostly no. 

Do I think they are largely unrealistic and unoriginal? Yes. 

Do my eyes get more exercise (through rolling) than the rest of me if I read for 2-3hours a day? Yes. 

Do I scream abuses at the computer because almost every romance story sucks? Yes. 

Do I hate myself sometimes for liking 'cliche crap' (as some people may put it)? Yes. 

So why do I subject myself to utter frustration and devastation in the romance genre?

Let's start with the negatives. 

You know what I hate? Introductions. 

No, it's not the introductions you are thinking of. It's self introductions in stories that I hate. 

It's kinda became a way for me to see if the a cliche story is worth reading. If I "so I better introduce myself..." or "I am 5'5 with long brown hair and green eyes..." or any other equivalent of that, alarm bells sound "Abandon! ABANDON!". 

I obey the command but no before the sassy she-devil from within flings abuse at it: "What are you 5!? No body gives a fuck about how you look like or how sparkly your damn personality is! Haven't you heard!? Actions speak louder than words you little twat! ighreot834hc843cho34tv" and other obscenities.

Yeah I definitely need a punching bag. 

Along the same lines as self-descriptions: character profiles. Oh. My. Effing. Pies. I honestly can't tell you whether whether profile or descriptions are worse. 

I am sure there is at least one person out there (or so I am hoping) that can write a good character profile. But I have not come across any. What I have seen is this is literally this give or take a few headings:

Name: Jane Doe
Age: 18
Personality: Jane is a happy-lucky-go girl who always have a bright smile. She is beautiful but she doesn't think so. She might seem like a nice girl but everyone is scare of her when she is angry!

Like what the actual fuck. 

Excuse me while I go and build a space ship and find an alien planet where the residents actually have a brain.

I honestly don't know whether these characters profiles and descriptions are more disturbing or watching A Serbian Film (if you don't know what that is go look it up. It's a disturbing piece of work).

Seriously, I am really gonna have anger problems if I come across any more of crap like these.

I am too disgusted by the thought of those profiles and descriptions to even think about all the other things wrong with wrong with romances on the internet. 

Yep. Definitely gonna needa get a punching bag.

♥W=3ndu

Amnesia

I have always wanted to know what it felt like to be amnesiac.

In a weird masochistic sense I wanted to experience that despair and desperation of not knowing who you are and who anyone is. 

Okay, so maybe I won't despair. Maybe I will feel something else. But it's hard to really imagine what it will feel like. 

So yes, I kind of want to experience it... but I am also scared. 

To not remember anything about yourself and feel that you are a stranger to yourself terrifies me to an extend. Especially since there is no guarantee that you will ever regain your memories. 

At the same time... maybe it's an opportunity to re-invent yourself if you get over the whole 'I don't know who I am' thing. 

It could be a journey of self-discovery. 

Ofc, this is just speculation. I don't know how people who suffer from amnesia truly feel. 

I would like to know though. I am too curious for my own good ^^" I suppose I will keep wondering until I someone who have suffered from amnesia shares their experience with me or that I (hopefully not) suffer from it myself in the future.

Somehow I feel like I have just cursed myself..... Opps. 

Curiosity killed the cat.

Satisfactory bought it back.

♥W=3ndu

Agreeable

Does it sometimes feel like you are trying too hard to be agreeable? 

That's what I feel like. 

It's not that I really care about what people think about me per se. It's more the fact that I don't want to offend anyone because I don't mean any of my words to be malicious 98% of the time. 

But it's hard to express your opinion without offending anyone. It's practically impossible. But yet I find myself trying. 

So I suppose I can't actually say that 'I don't care what people think of me' because then I will be a hypocrite. I think it's human nature to care to some extend. 

When I say I don't care I think it's more the fact that I don't care if they think I am different or strange instead I relish in it. So what is it about people's opinions about me that I care about?

I think in all honesty what I care about and fear is people's hostility. I would go as far as to say that I don't care about what people think about me as long as their opinions of me does not lead to hostility in their attitude towards me. 

I think it's that fear of hostility that drives me to ultimately care about people's opinions about me to some extend. 

But I think this fear is decapitating. I have allowed the fear to limit my ability to express my true opinions and be the sassy self that I know I can be. 

So how do I limit the effect this fear have on my social interactions? 

I will probably do what I normally do - throw myself off into the deep-end. Sooner or later I will have to learn how to swim. 

In this case, the deep really just involved me forcing myself to state my opinion that I am not comfortable stating around people that I might not be comfortable with. Then I will realise "hey it's not that bad."

Everything is easier said than done. But I will try. 

♥W=3ndu

Story Review: Improved

Tbh, this really shouldn't have been when I decided to read at the moment at all. But yet here I am, having read the whole thing without skipping any bits (which is quite a challenge because I am impatient and lose interest easily so only good captivating stuff holds more urges to skip in check) and is left itching for more. 

I myself don't really understand why I decided to read this instead of leaving it in my never ending list of to-reads but, to be cliche, fate works in mysterious ways. 

I am glad that I picked this up instead of my preferred genre of romance (most of which just involved me skipping parts because I don't find them substantially captivating enough). 

On a normal day I won't have picked this up, but normal is hard to define. Either way I am glad I picked this genuinely intriguing and well-writing story up to read instead of, what one might call, 'crappy romance fiction'. 

But here is the link for you to check out if so wish: Improved: http://www.wattpad.com/story/1019597-improved

Title

The title is understandable and is obvious as to what it is pointing at. It's simple and to the point. 

Grammar/spelling/punctuation/all-those-English-thing

I really should take this section out... I really shouldn't judge other people when I can barely use the right tense ^^"

Plot/Characterisation/General Comment/What-not-and-stuff/SPOILER

Well the plot isn't that original. It's quite typical of the dystopian genere which this, imo, falls under. 

Honestly a lot of the major plot devices are very predictable but even then my fickle self still found enjoyment reading it because it is well written. 

The language and tone is very good (for the lack of.a better word and a lack of knowledge of English savvy terms). 

The transition between the different character point of views are seamless and feels really natural (which is just another way of saying seamless.. I don't know why I repeated myself ^^"). Most chapters focus on the story from a different character's perspective. It is a really clever way to show your character instead of explain your character. It allows us, the audience, to understand the various characters deeper and from more angles than possible if it was only written from one perspective. It's clever. 

Another clever thing about this is how I don't find any discrepancies in the events described. It all falls on a pretty clear linear timeline. It all seems to me a very well planned out world and not just some random ideas of the future thrown together. It's panned, clear and sensible. 

I like the characters too. They all feel 'human'. They have their flaws. They are all prone to confirmation bias and prone to being in denial of things that might shake up their established idea of the world and their place in it. And they are all quick to judge and often fail to truly to understand/know even their closest companions. All very 'humane' flaws along with other character specific flaws.

As a psychology junkie, I love the realistic-ness of the characters. It puts a smile on my face :)

I like how the main character Lai is different in a very relatable way imo. She is just feels very real in a 'I am anti-social and different but I don't care' kind of way which is probably not the best way to describe it. Although at times I thought there were slight discrepancies in her character (which might just be my paranoia talking) it doesn't seem unrealistic. 

I like Alec and how initially judgmental he was of Lai. SPOILER I like how he slowly learns about her but doesn't exactly change his opinion of her until it kinda clicks naturally that she isn't exactly what he thought she was. 

I like Cade and kind of how almost puppy-like he is. SPOILER I like the issue to do with how his appearance changed and that he became more confident because of it and whether he is still the same person (which I still believe him to be internally - his software is updated but his hardware is still the same kinda thing). I like how normal he is and I can't pity him in a way. 

I like Ema (who for some reason my brain decided was call Vera.. Probably something to do with how her physic description reminds me of those beautiful creatures in Harry Potter which I have associated with the name Vera even though I can't remember what they are called) because I dislike her. I think her character is interesting but I just don't like her as a person. 

SPOILER My reason for my facination and dislike is, simply put, because she is, in my opinion, delusionally trying to maintain the perfect order in her life and rather ignore the fact something 'wrong' has happened lest her perfect world be destroyed. She is also display subtle evidence of self-centreness which is masked by her need to help people. It is kind of expected though because she is 'perfect' in her orderly world and she knows it. So now that bad things is trying to destroy her world where she is perfect and she realises that she is not as 'the best' as she thought she runs away and is in denial in a way. And ofc she needs to convince others  that she to follow her and run away with her to assure her that she is not wrong in what she chose. It's quite fascinating and since this is not a psychological rambling section I will just leave this as my opinion and not try to prove anything because even if I did throw data and savvy terms it really is just my opinion. 

SPOILER Another interesting thing also related to Ema for me is how she said she always "wanted to be the first imp to fall in love" and she is the first imp to fall in love. It really makes me think whether she is in love with Cade or whether she forced herself to fall in love with him. Especially since they met when she was distraughted and he helped her. So it won't be improbable that she mistook the comfort and fondness she found with him as 'love'. But then again... What is love? So I don't exactly doubt that she did love Cade, I am just questioning whether really was in love him. But I do have doubts about her "I love you" to Cade/Les at the end. Isn't it just convinient that she decided that she did love him once she needed someone to assure her of her actions. So I just don't buy it. 

End Note

Anyway! I just really sound like an rambling lunatic (which is why I ended it there before I started on another trail ^^"). Well *shrug* what can I say... I just really like this story. 

I like it so much I actually kind of want a sequel. And this is a big thing because I have an irrational prejudice against sequels. Well I don't mind if there wasn't one... But I would really like to read it if there was one (but I will probably wait until it's completed before I read it). 

Conclusion: doing things outside of the usual might lead to insane rambling but it also might lead to fascinating gems :)

♥W=3ndu

Story Review: Burning Moon

I'm bored. 

It seems to be a reoccurring problem lately. 

The fault for my state of being is mostly mine. To put it simply I am just too lazy to do anything that is not drowning myself in, probably, unhealthy doses of fiction.

I think I might need a reality check. 

But anyway this isn't about me (although since it's my blog it should be =P), it's about this delightful story I read: Burning Moon: http://www.wattpad.com/story/8704900-burning-moon-sytycw-winner

Title

The title makes sense once you get to that point in the story :) I like it.

Grammar/spelling/punctuation/all-those-English-thing

Who am I to judge? But as far as my inexperience eyes can tell: nothing majorly wrong.

Plot/Characterisation/General Comment/What-not-and-stuff/SPOILER

Simply said. I love it. 

It took me a loooooonnnggg time before I actually mustered up the courage to read it. 

Well it's not like there was anything wrong with it at first glance. In fact it looked promising. I am just a picky bit itchy. 

If I was to be honest, I didn't read it initially (and chucked in my never ending list of: to read) because it sounded humourous. 

There I said it. I just hate fun like that. 

But in all sincerity, it is because I have an unique sense of humour that most 'humour' labels don't cater for. Or in some people's words: I have no sense of humour. Damn what a straightforward bit itchy.

But I liked this. I like the irony in the jokes. That is what I laugh for. 

And I like the characters. My simple descriptions of them won't do them any justice. But I just love the dynamics of their interactions. It's quirky. It's fun. It's syyzgy.

Personally I like the the alternative ending better (yes ladies and gentleman, the author wrote two possible endings) because (SPOILER ALERT) I was hoping throughout the whole last chapter that neither of them give up their plans for each other and be miserable for a year and then meet up and realise how only their love mattered. 

Now thinking about it... (SPOILER ALERT) I don't completely understand why they had to break up. Couldn't they just have had a long distance relationship? Silly people. 

But either way, I thought the alternative ending showed more the fact that it doesn't matter how different they are what was important was that they loved each other. Although it didn't really address what they planned to do with the future.

The reason why I didn't like the original ending as much is because it felt like he was the only one giving something up for the relationship. He gave up his already decided plans for one year for her and it seemed like they are living their life more to her style than his. But that's just my feelings. 

At least in the alternative ending he at least had that one year of what he planned and she had the one year of what she planned. Even if they were both miserable at least then they realise that it's their love that mattered the most.

I don't even know whether what I just said made sense in anyone else's head but mine..... ah well, I am just not good with this kind of self expression. 

End Note

Well what else can I say 'sides the fact that this is a new favourite. 

And that I really needa do something with myself these holidays.

♥W=3ndu

Story Review: Under His Watch (16th Century Valois-Orléans-Angoulême Romance)

yeah I am writing another review... 'cuz I have nothing else to do (well I suppose I can organise my room more than what I have done so far.. but com'on who wants to do that!).. so I am just gonna pass time until 5 when the floor meeting is...

oyeah... I am at ANU in Canberra atm.... first day... mom = fuss.... 'nough said =3

forward to the review!

Title

I am assuming 'Valois-Orléans-Angoulême' is French (cuz the story was set in France)... but I don't speak the language... I am not even sure what it means.. or whether it's a place or an era or whatever.... so yeah.. just pointless ramble...

well imo.... the stuff inside the brackets isn't needed in the title... coulda been put in the blurb instead.. but well doesn't really matter.. no biggie =3

I like the title 'Under His Watch'.. I think it sets the tone for the story... you know the sexism stuff... 'cuz it is historical.... so yeah I like it =3 

Grammar/spelling/punctuation/all-those-English-things

I am not too sure whether it's this story or another... I am pretty sure it's not this story.... well I am not too sure but one of the stories I read these past few days had well... a lot of missing words or words that were out of order and the like ^^" made it hard to read...

I am pretty sure it wasn't this story.. but again I am not too sure... so just a warning in case I am wrong and it is this story.....

Plot/Characterisation/General Comment/What-not-and-stuff/SPOILER(probs)

First thing first: I love how the sexism and racism is actually expressed in this story. Like it is actually expressed and it is actually used as a 'problem' (shit my tired mind can't remember my vocab) which I like. 

There are other historical fics that mention the sexism/racism stuff.. but it's kinda like: "oh yeah that was a problem... let's mention it..." but they are just not really expressed well and isn't actually incorporated into the character's personalities and mindset.... 

so yeah I like the overall plotline (although it really just focuses on romance.. so yeah ^^")

So yeah a problem I have with this fic is the fact that I feel like I got whiplashed quite a few times.... ^^" so what I mean by that is the flow of something of the things is a bit abrupt... so imo some of the changes in the character's mindset and stuff happened kinda outta nowhere.... like it just kinda like there wasn't a good enough reason or event that triggered the change.... I don't know how to describe it (esp. since I am kinda falling asleep on my keyboard)... 

but yeah the characterisation is not bad.... but like I said in the paragraph above.. that was a issue for me....

End Note

I am really sleepy... I am sorry if nothing makes sense.... and it is probs not as thorough as it shoulda been but I just can't conjure anything up in my tired state of existence......

♥W=3ndu

Story Review: SwEeT MaDnEsS

well.. I thought I should try this out... reviewing stuff that is =3 

I mean I think it's much healthier for my friends' ears if I let out my pent up reviewing-feelings online than into their poor abused eardrums ;P

So yeah... this review thing is probs only gonna happen when my big mouth needs another outlet (cuz, fortunately for my friends' poor abused eardrums, there are no one to yell out my pent-up review-iness to =P)

so to kick-off the review I like to say: the name is such a bother to type out ^^" I keep missing one of the 'e's 'cuz I am too busy making sure the capitals are where it's meant to be ^^"

Owait... I should probs link you to the story first.. yeah might be a good idea.. oops ^^"

SwEeT MaDnEsS: http://www.wattpad.com/story/810374-sweet-madness-watty-awards-2012

the link is down at the bottom of the page on my Red List too =3

So yeah how do I start reviewing...

okay.. let's get this started =3

The Title

well I like the title...  but I am not particularly fond of the alternating capitalism of the letters.. but okay.. maybe their is a meaning for it... I am not too sure... cuz I can't think of anything.. so any ideas people? (I realise I might as well as message the author for an answer.. but knowing my laziness... not gonna happen ==)

Grammar/spelling/punctuation/all-those-English-things

I am the worse person to judge grammar ^^" I am kinda self-taught in this area.. and let's just say... well I discover the internet and then it messed up my subconscious understanding of grammar.... ^^" 

So yeah... I don't recall any major hiccups... and well minor hiccups are completely understandable cuz lack of edit and even publish books have occasional hiccups... 

so basically I am really lenient for these sorta things.... well I still have my limit.. as long as it's nothing major I don't really complain =3

Plot/Characterisation/General Comment/What-not-and-stuff/SPOILER(probs)

knowing my big mouth I probs just start sprouting and never stop so that's why all under the same heading =3.... and I don't think that made much sense.......................................

Anyway!

Let me just point this out. This is classified under the genre of 'horror' so don't expect romance.. don't expect happy things.. like srsly don't...

Tbh.. It isn't exactly what I would consider horror, it's more like suspense imo.. but then again horror to me = ghosts and/or undead things (which are not vampires, zombies that are not skeletal, demons, etc).. so yeah ^^" more thriller or suspense imo but then again I have been told I am weird......

My opinion: I really love this. I like how it make my heart thump in suspense (not in horror mind you). I love how it makes me question reality. Am I mad? Am I insane? Is the person I thought was insane actually not insane?

I love question/thought provoking stuff =3 (although I have been told my definition of thought provoking-ness is weird and disturbing at times...........)

Obviously this is fantastical.. but I like the realism of it... It really makes you think (and get paranoid) that maybe this could be real... hence the thought provoking questions...

and honestly.. I like the fact that (Spoiler alert. You have been warned) the ending was not happy

well it wasn't like it wasn't exactly unhappy.. okay nevermind it is not happy.. but it's more like the ending signified hopelessness (and imo has very little to do with being happy ^^" you can be hopeful and still be unhappy just saying)

I am not too sure how other ppl feel about the ending.. but honestly I like it... it feels real... scary... but real.. and well if this was set under the romance genre then I can think of other ways this story could have ended (most of which are very very cliche).. but for the fact that it is not a romance story the ending is very suitable..

I have to admit though.. I did go into the story not knowing what genre it was.. I think I was under the impression that it was romance... so I did assume too much from the characters' interactions and stuff ^^" but I wasn't disappointed by the lack of romance... a good story is a good story despite genres =3

(sorry I am kinda jumping around here.. 'cuz I  am just typing things as they come to mind)

there was something I didn't particularly like about the ending... and well I don't mind it per say... it just makes me very anxious (for the lack of a better word).... I feel like there was so many unanswered questions... and the questions that were kinda answered makes me a bit confuse... but then I realise that was probably the point............................... but I am a curious person okay! >~<

but really it's not something I can complain about.. 'cuz the unknowing and confusion adds to the realism/horror/suspense/blahblah of the story

there was one other thing I am not too fond of (note: it's not dislike.. I am just not fond of it.. there's a diff).. is it just me or is the protagonist extremely dim-witted? ^^" it's kinda grates on my nerves a bit... but at the same time I kinda sympathise (at times)... still not too fond of her...

But yeah the confusion is great in the story... makes you confuse enough that you get paranoid about Madness but not enough that to not understand the flow of the story (imo) =3 and sides confusion is good. makes you think. makes you learn =3

So overall, it is one of my favourites. I hesitate with ranking it because there are too many elements to consider - especially cuz this isn't a romance unlike the rest of the stories up in my heaven of favourites. But yes this story is up in my heaven of favourites... I just hesitate to rank =3

End Note

Heard the author is probs gonna write an epilogue or a sequel... honestly I would prefer an epilogue.. I don't particular want a sequel (although I probs end up reading it ^^").. I find that usually, not always 'cuz I can think of some amazing exceptions, sequels tend to disappoint and take away the something of amazingness of the original (I was gonna say "take away the toppings of the original" but then I was afraid I would confuse people too much ^^") so an epilogue would be nice.. maybe clarify few things... but I would probs read the sequel if she writes one anyway ^^"

♥W=3ndu

ANU (and omg google chrome going insane)

lol~ goodbye sydney~ looks like I am going ANU for uni~ =3

haha~ I am officially leaving in 5days~ =3

I am shit scared but excited at the same time.. 'cuz like what if I don't make friends (cuz I am shy and all) and then I will be FOREVERALONE!

haha~ but it's still an adventure so yeah~ excited =3

and omg....

just updated google chrome (the extension or something like that)

and I swear every site it's like: MALWARE WARNING!

it's kinda driving me insane ==

♥W=3ndu

I am back...?

Lol~ seems like I finally decided to show my face again...

Hahaa~ but I don't know how long that's gonna last... ==

So what's been happening you ask.

Well....

COMPLETED THE HSC!!!

now just sitting here waiting for the results to curse me into the fiery pits of hell.....

on another note....

I added something at the bottom of my blog thingo... just scroll scroll scroll to the bottom

you will be face with 'Red List' glaring at you from among the abyss...

so what is the Red List?

Red = Read... let's just get that outta the way =3

so basically just a list of stuff I have read (red) which I consider to be a favourite of mine..

the middle (directly underneath 'Red List') is my favourite of the favourites in a way

the left are the ones that I favour and I just can't imagine making this list without them even if I don't particularly favour them that much...

the right are the ones that are still in progress but what's been written so far has captured me... however the problem with unfinished work is that it can go either way.. it might end up really good or it could be a complete and utter disappointment....

so yeah... just a bit of info for you peeps out there =3

if I get bored I will write a little 'review' of sorts for each of them.... which kinda means copy n paste stuff I have written about them xP
cya when I cya! (which might be never =3)

♥W=3ndu

pretty eyes =3

this is a completely impulsive post =3

I did mean it when I said "bye bye" but welll......

I just really felt like saying this... so here it goes...

I like pretty eyes.

I just realised that I never expressed this before...

I am immediately attracted to guys with pretty eyes

There's just something magical about them eyes

It just takes my breath away

I realise that my definition of pretty eyes is very different from other people's definition

For me, pretty eyes isn't about beauty and the physical beauty of the eyes like how it's shaped and stuff....

To me pretty eyes are eyes that twinkle with something special and mysterious.

It's alluring.

It's like  charm.

There's just something special that is indescribable which draws me in.

Lol~ ofc~ if I say someone has pretty eyes I don't always mean their eyes are this type which leave me breathless....

Maybe I should say charming eyes instead?

Haha~ but I am already use to 'pretty eyes'...

I am weak against guys who have these pretty eyes.

Even though logically I know that many of them with these eyes are not good-looking... I can't help but exclaim in my head: "zomg! he is soooooo good-looking!!!!"  which results in my friends questioning my definition of good-looking ^^"

But I can't help it.

Guys with pretty eyes are attractive in my eyes. They make me feel fuzzy.  =3

♥W=3ndu

Goodbye....... for a bit~

Well...

Great..... HSC.....

yeah....

great....

well~

Lol~ well guys you wouldn't be seeing me in a while =3

I actually needa work hard this year ^^"

geezz~~ this is already giving me a headache ^^" 

bye~ cya when I see ya~ =3

♥W=3ndu

Oops~ I did it again~ =3

Lol~

Art~ =3 

Like it??? (thanx Ollie last time for commenting and liking my art~ =3)

Haha~ I can't help it ^^"

I just get the urge to draw it.... so I do ^^" 

And it develops as I draw it ^^"

It was a heart at first (below pic =3) but it turn into what was above......

lol~ I thought my heart looked too empty... don't you reckon? >~<

but I thought something simple was more suitable and will look better =3 hence the dots circles dots=3

Kekeke~ xD

I wonder what will happen tomorrow?

lol~ my mom actually suggested for me to use henna so it will last longer ^^"

Ne~ never expected my mom to take an interest ^^"

♥W=3ndu

Butterfly~ =3

Do you like it????

Do you like it~! x3

I sure as hell do~ =3

lol~ I drew it freehand and it didn't turn out too not-proportionate~ =3 which is a GREAT achievement~ xD YEAH~!! x3

Lol~ my mom thought it was tattoo~ =3

Kekkekeke~

Mom, there's a magical thing there call 'liquid eye-liner'.. never heard of it? It's magical~ xP

Haha~ I am very proud of my artwork =3

Too bad it will come off in the shower >~<

♥W=3ndu

P.S. YEAH!!! A non-kpop post! x3

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WELCOME 2012!!!!!!!!!! xD

^lol~ that's 4days too late ^^"  oh well =3

I was doing very *cough* productive *cough* things during those 4days x3

Haha~ don't know whether you can tell =3  but I am in high spirits the moment! xD

ZOOOOMMMGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!! XD XD XD

*on Cloud 9*

okaii~ before you guys think I am more insane than normal (<-- not exactly sure what normal is =3but you get my drift..?) I will explain what is happening~ =3

Yeah!!! STORY TIME!!!!! x3

(I'm clear really high joyous at the moment~ =3)

ZOMG!!!!

INFINITE!!!!

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THEY ARE AMAZING!!! DAEBAK!!!!!!!!!

I am officially in love with them~♥! =3

Hahaha~ The thing is I knew of them... I was just never aware of them... ^^" if you get me~ =3

I mean I am avid reader of fanfiction and I have noticed that the tag: 'infinite' just keep climbing up the popular list... and now they are the number 1 group tag on Asianfanfics ~

I have seen all the review of EatYourKimchi and have thus watched most of their MVs... and when I watched it, I was like: "Wow~ Damn they are good!!!"

And I have definitely heard my friends talk about how good they were...

But up until now I didn't have a single one of their songs. Nor did I even know how many members they were.

Heck I probably checked them out when they first debuted (not that I remember ^^").

I just never really pay them any attention more than "Wow! They have good songs!" (Heck I didn't even have their songs!)

But a fanfiction changed that.

Normally I wouldn't read fanfiction of people I didn't know... but the fanfic was on the featured list and it sounded really good, so I read it =3

Lol~ I have to admit I was searching up the members as I was reading it... and I will share what I said at the time (actually I remembered I searched them up before too and had the exact same thought):

"THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME!!!!!!!!!!! o.o Srsly... Is it just me... Or do they look alike?
... oh~ but they all very very good-looking~♥ *w*"

Haha~ I never had a dilemma where I couldn't straight away distinguish the members ^^" but with Infinite I kept searching up the individual members but it always ends up being something like this:

"Oh~ He is really good looking~ x3  *searched up another member* oh~ very handsome too.... wait... wasn't he the guy before? *searched up another member* Mmm~ Good-looking too~ Wait... Isn't he the guy before and the guy before that!? O.O" *rage quits*

But now I can proudly say: I can distinguish them!!!! xD

And now looking at them... I have no idea why I was so confused ^^"  but at the time it made perfect sense =3

Haha~ but for some reason (Osh agrees!) I think SungJong, the maknae, looks like Taemin! No srsly! They really look alike! =3 SungJong is so cute~ Poor him... always getting abuse by the other members ^^"

And well... for some other reason.... I think Hoya looks a bit like Yunho... ^^"  I know Hoya's face is a lot wider than Yunho's... Yunho is a lot taller and also lankier... but I srsly think they look alike ^^"  and even some of their expressions and mannerism resemble! .... maybe it's just me ^^"

Lol at DongWoo's laugh! Kekeke~ =3 I love his laugh =3 I don't know.. but it makes me laugh xD  although I can't figure out why I am laughing =3  and he has the funniest reactions too! x3

Lol~ Sungkyu and his nagging~ x3

Sungyeol the elementary kid.. I have no idea why that's his nickname though ^^" him and his pranks~ lol~ xD

I love WooHyun and his fanservice~ =3 lol~ I know it's suppose to make fangirls squeal and faint from happiness... but it makes me laugh xD  Not because I am laughing at him but I just find it funny (does that even make sense?? xD) Haha~ he is 1 of my 2 favourite members =3ohhh~ and did I mention he was really nice arms xD haha~ pretty muscular x3

I know L is suppose to be mysterious and all.... but he remind me of a kid ^^"  lol at the members saying: "he has no presence" x3  haha~ I don't know why but he remind of a kid ^^" Sorry L ^^" but the name 'L' will always make me think of L from Death Note before I think of you ^^"  haha~ he is my other favourite member =3 I can't decide between him and WooHyun (although I know DooWoo comes 2nd x3  'cuz he just makes me laugh for no reason =3)

Anyway! Enough with the fangirling over the members!

Continuing with my narration! xD

I kept seeing fanfics of them... I guess that's probably what initially prompted me to get their songs...

And then I don't know.. I just felt like watching a show with them in it.. So I did =3

(Yeah for impulses! x3)

I found Seasame Player~ and I just felt like I should watch it~ =3

(Yeah! for instincts! x3)

So I did~ =3

And I am so glad I did~! x3  They are so funny~! x3 (and that's how I learned their names and faces.. although it take me all the way 'til episode 4 to get it right ^^") So far I haven't had a moment where I felt bored (which happens a lot ^^") which I have to say is really good sign seeing that (as much as I love them) when I was watching the B2ST documentary I was bored half the time ^^" (sorry B2ST ^^"  I still love you, more like especially your songs =3)

Haha~ and because I saw how amazing they were (mostly because they talking about their comeback) =3 I went and rewatched all of EatYourKimchi's reviews on them =3

And all their MVs =3

And all their debut and comeback stages~ =3

I have to say DAEBAK!!!!! x3

(soz to Alisa, if she's reading this, for all the koreabooness ^^"  is that even the right word??)

I am not obsessively crazy over them =3 which is a good sign =3  because it means I like them not because of image and the hype but because I actually like them =3

They are officially the first group besides DBSK (Always Keep the Faith~!) who I actually want to declare myself as an actual, official, fan of.. meaning that I want to call myself by their official fanclub name (i.e. I'm a Cassie.. or I am a B2UTY.. or I an a INSPIRIT)

I mean, anyone who knows will know, I really love B2ST.. but I will say I am their fan but I won't call myself a B2UTY.... do you guys get the difference (between being a fan and an official fan who goes by the official fanclub name)??

So for me actually wanting to acknowledge myself as an Inspirit is a pretty bid deal...It's a first since DBSK (who will be special to be for ∞ ~   xD like the pun?? xD)

Haha~ So yeah I really love them =3 but I am not crazy obsess with them (which is a good sign) =3

I guess now I am a Cassie... and an Inspirit?

lol~ I am still a bit reluctant to be an official fan of anyone else besides DBSK ^^"

I guess it's something I will just have to come in terms with~ =3

But for me... DBSK will forever be the best~ =3   I am not betraying them (just in case some crazy fan accuse me of it ^^"), I merely learning to walk forward and appreciate other great talents while still loving DBSK =3

Good luck INFINITE in the yr 2012!!!! x3 

To ∞!

♥W=3ndu

P.S. Is it just me.. or has basically all my post this holidays been fangirling posts???
QUICK! Somebody do something that I can post about that will not be fangirling!!!!!! >~<

Five Forever.

I don't even know why I am blogging about this.Since I kinda yell this out everyday of my life (that's an exaggeration - maybe not everyday).

I don't know. Maybe it's 'cuz I am bit emotional thepast3days lately.

Maybe it's 'cuz I went to Asianfanfics last night today.

Or maybe it's 'cuz one of their songs were playing few seconds ago.

Or perhaps it's because one of my friends mentioned them just now.

I don't even know.

What I do know is: I miss them. A lot.

I miss them enough to use full stops instead of '...'.

That's how much I miss them.

I love fanfics. That is a known fact.

But lately I can barely even stand to go into the fandoms of any of them.

I mean, I am the girl who scavenge-hunt thru fanfiction.net when Itachi died, when Hidan died, when Ace died, hell even when Kakuzu died just so I can read fanfics of them alive.

I guess it's just that I want them back together so much.

When I read fanfics of them being 5, I feel so sad and empty that they aren't actually 5 anymore.

When I read fanfics of them being separated as they are now, I feel sad and disappointed that even fanfictions are starting to accept their separation.

When I read fanfics of them miraculously finding a way to kick SM's ass and get back together, I want to cry because I want that to happen for real so much.

I guess I can never be satisfied unless they really get back together.

You know what the sad part is?

I only got into Kpop a few months after they started the lawsuit.

And by the time I became a fan, it was already to late to see them together because a few months later they officially split.

Maybe it's regret that I didn't ever got the chance to feel the anticipation of waiting for their new album/single/EP/mini-album come out.

I feel even sadder when I see: JYJ's JaeJoong or JYJ's Yoochun or JYJ's Junsu because to me they are still part of DBSK.

Every single time I see TVXQ I still expect to see 5 faces but instead I only see 2.

I guess nothing lasts forever.

But being the flawed human that I am, it's a not a fact that I am willing to accept.

I realise that it is probably hard on them too. I mean they are brothers who have been through thick and thin together for 9 years. They who had no friends but each other when they wandered into the foreign land of Japan and manage to make a legend out of themselves.

They must be the one taking this the hardest or maybe the shell is dry. Hell I don't know how they feel or the details of what really happened.

I try not to assume. But it's hard. I can't help but speculate. In my mind: they must miss each other so much since they have been brothers for 9 years. But for all I know their friendship might have fell apart. For all I know they could have sat down and discussed this. For all I know they could still be in communication.

Who knows besides them.

Of course, I won't deny that I have painted SM to be a villain in my mind. And I admit, for all I know they could really be angels. But the fact is looking at Hangeng's case and their lawsuit and the rumours it is hard to not paint SM as a villain. And the fact is the court have ruled in favour of both Hangeng and JaeJoong&Yoochun&Junsu against SM.

This makes it really easy for people to doubt the sincerity of SM and thus SM is a villain in the eyes of many fans.

Of course I know that there are fans who blame JaeJoong and Yoochun and Junsu for the split. And yes, I agree that if they never filed the lawsuit they will still be together.

But one have to question what happened behind the scenes?

And one have to question why Yunho and Changmin didn't join them?

These are question that we can never find the truth to. Even if all involve share their version of the story. Their truths will be different and thus each fan's truth will also be different. There will not be one truth but many. Which one you believe will depend entirely on your values and you as a person.

I don't ever think the whole story will be exposed. And even if part of the story is told there still might be untold parts. There are somethings that people don't share.

So if or when the story is told, I will listen but I will keep my mind open because there are always untold parts to every story.

That doesn't stop me from forming an opinion though. It's only human nature.

I can't promise not to judge but I can promise to listen and be flexible.

I think I went off track again.

You know what else makes me sad?

The fact that I don't have all of their songs.

It makes me feel like I don't have the right to say I am fan.

But I will get all their songs. I am determined.

Even though I said that, I still feel the sad bitter after-taste when I listen to their songs.  And that makes me afraid to get their songs for the sake of self-preservation. I am a coward and I know that.

But I guess that makes me even more determined. I might be coward but I am stubborn as hell.

It doesn't change the fact that they are split though.

Always Keep the Faith.

I will imprint those words across my heart.

But it doesn't stop me from feeling like they will never be together again. That makes a bit of a bad fan aye?

It just that my logical side keep reminding me that the chances of them being together is slim. The lawsuit is not quite over yet. Both SM and JaeJoong&Yoochun&Junsu are too stubborn to submit to the other. Unless they are willing to both win some and lose some then the chances are they are not going to be together anytime soon if ever.

But, with that said, my romantic side keeps repeating: "Believe." Believe that they will work some out and they will be together again.

Of course, my hopeless side keeps wishing that somehow a huge new company comes and somehow everyone is free from SM and they can be together again - like the fanfics.

I just miss them so much.

I miss them enough that I have not used any smilies throughout the whole post. For anyone who knows the way I type, they must know that this is a heck of an achievement.

It just shows how much I miss them as 5.

I will continue to support them as the 3 and 2 that they are now.

But in my heart and mind, they will forever be 5.

♥W=3ndu

Writing and Fangirls

Okay~ So I suddenly feel like writing a post...

... but I completely forgot what I wanted to write about ^^"

Damn! I even had sentences prepared!!! >~< and they were perfect!!! >~<

well... acutally... it's not like I exactly forgot the topic... I still remember the topic... but I have no idea about the contents ^^"

How that works? I have no idea.. It just does okay!! >~<

*thinks*

*5minutes later*

Hmmm~~ it was that fb status... but what about it... hmmmm.....

*10minutes later*

Maybe I should get off my ass and start pacing instead................................... Nah! =3

*30minutes and a box of chocolates later...*

oh that's right!!!!!!!!! I Remember!!!! (<--- btw that's a wonderful song by Bang YooGuk-or-something-like-that and Yoseob~ =3 It's amazing~! =3)

Lol~ I already fb-ed this... so why do I feel the need to do it again...

well.. let's face it.... fb isn't like a blog... and I can't exactly go into insane details on there ^^"

SOO!!!!!!!!

LET'S START AT THE BEGINNING!!! x3

Well... I was on allkpop looking at the Seoul Tokyo concert or something like that... and then I saw on the side............

"JYJ's JaeJoong reveals his idea type!"

ofc~ being the instinctive fangirl that I am... I clicked on it...

but straight away I realise how silly that was.. because well.. I have watched sooooo many variety shows and he always reveals his ideal type.... "Pretty hands!"

so you think I closed the tab?

Well no....... ^^"  I am way tooo curious for my own good ^^"

and then I read this:

He elaborated with, “It seems that as time passes by, my ideal woman changes. Before it was, ‘I like those with pretty hands and feet’, but it changed a lot now. I would like it if her personality was random. I like woman who push and pull [play hard].“

I guess I wasn't exactly right... okay so sue me.. I thought celebrities won't change what they say to the public as their ideal type. Sue me... =P

So if was an insane fangirl...

and let me elaborate here...

I am insane and a fangirl..... but I am not an 'insane fangirl'!

Geez! There is a different get it right! I mean the insane in 'insane fangirl' describe the fangirl... but the insane in 'I am insane' describes me... see there's a difference! =3

(it makes perfect sense to me =3)

Okay so... let's continue with 'hypothetically' situation... IF I was an insane fangirl... my reaction upon reading that would be something like:

"ZOMG!!!!! JJ♥! That description is like totally a mirror image of me!!!!!!! ZOMG!! I am SOOOOOOO perfect for you!!!! I ♥ YOU JJ!!!!!!!!!"

Ofc~ seeing as I am actually only insane and not an 'insane fangirl.... I did not react like that....

Instead it was more like:

"... Cool story bro... ofc your ideal type would change.. but srsly I think you just broke the hearts of all the girls who worked so hard to get pretty hands ^^" Geez men. Never taking responsibility for what they say......"

As much as I love JJ~ I am not exactly deslusional enough to think that:

Our eyes met above the heads of the screaming fangirls. It was just for a moment but it felt like an eternity. I could see it in his eyes that he felt the same spark. A banner intervened. Our gazes were broken but the memory of it lingered. I know I will never forget the feeling of that one second of paradise.
That was 3 years ago when I was still a nameless fan among the crowds. To me that was our first meeting even if we never exactly 'met'. I smiled and remembered the day we physically met for the very first time...
My best friend's birthday was coming up and I was shopping for the perfect gift. I was so wrapped up in my thoughts I did not see the man that was rushing blindly in my direction. Nor did I see the collision course we were bound for until it was too late. I fell and braced myself for the impact. Instead of the cold concrete, I expected, warmth enveloped around me.
"Are you okay miss?" a handsome voice asked in concern.
I glanced up, ready to assure the stranger that I was okay. But all words died in my throat. It was like a piece of my memory had came to life. My gaze met those heavenly ones that haunted my every thought...
"What are you daydreaming about now?" my recollection was interrupted by the husky voice of my husband tickling my ear.
I smiled, "I was remembering how I first met you... my idol, JaeJoong..."

Excuse me while I gag.

Geez~ I am just so good at writing theses cheesy crap *gag* srsly maybe I should go write a oneshot *imagines it and gags* er... maybe not... as much as I am amazing at it... I really don't think it's good for my health. with all the gagging and stuff..... ^^"

SRSLY! This is what insane fangirls fantasies about... and despite the fact that I can write it, I do not fantasies about this type of cheesy happily ever after with idols/celebrities...

Darlings... The truth is. It's not gonna happen.

I mean (call me cynical) what are the chances that you guys will bump into each other in the mall and end up getting married a few years later.... I doubt he would even remember your name... no offense but they probably meet a lot of people and it's just not realistic.

Okay... I admit I do love reading fanfiction.. but the thing is to me they are just another story but with characters that I am already familiar with.. and I am a romantic at heart... I mean what girl doesn't dream about a guy saving them? (please don't say feminists ^^") I sure hell do.

It's just that... well... the chances with idols is er..... like 0.1%.. okay yesh it's still a possibility but sweetie the odds are against you ^^"

The things is idols/celebrities are wonderful... and even if we think we are 'in love' with them now... when we meet them and (if you are really lucky) get to know them.. the chances are they are nothing like how we imagine them to be.. and well maybe you will be in love with the real them.. but if don't then no matter how hard you try to hold onto your 'in love' ness for them, it will most likely fall apart.. and it will just break your heart...

So I guess basically what I am saying is.. sure go be insane fangirls.. daydream all you want (hell I do that all the time).. love your idols as much as you want.. but always keep one foot planted on the ground so if your dreams get dashed you will be able to land safely and not be lost in the world.

And do yourself a favour.. go out and find love instead of fantasying about love =3

♥W=3ndu

This Xmas~ =3

Good Morning Ladies and Gentlemen!!! =3

..or is it afternoon... or maybe evening..

Well! Who cares! It was morning when I started this! SO! MORNING IT SHALL BE!!!!!! x3

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE~!♥!♥!♥!♥!♥! x3

Love you all!!! x3

*itching to type more* Why does Xmas messages also sound like New Year messages!!!!! Dx  Nooo!!! Must resist saying the New Year-ish stuff!!! >~< Grr!! Stupid holiday greetings that sound exactly the same!!!

Anywayz~!!!!! Enough with the "grrr-ing"~ =3

ONWARDS!!!!! xP

Again not in any chronological order at all!

Introducing This Xmas for the very first time, ladies and gentlemen!!!!

First up!!!!

Kris Kringle as KENNY'S HOUSE!!!!!!!

Yes ladies and gentlemen =3 We housenapped Kenny's House for a Xmas Party disguised as Studio Ghibli Marathon!!!! MWAHAHAHAH!!!! x3

Kenny has the most adorablest and weirdest doggy ever!!! 

(That's Kenn'y doggy, Bobby, humping the floor =P)

So yeah having tonnes of fun at Kenny's House~ =3 His mom is soo nice~ She made us Lunch!!!! KENNY YOUR FAMILY IS SOOOOO NICEE!!!!! x3

Everyone eyeing the delicious Japanese cuisine! =3

'Cuz Symo was 'sick', he got to open his Kris Kringle present first!! (Trust me.. he didn't look sick.. and he didn't sound sick)

Symo is trying and failing to untie the ribbon ^^" Great job dude =P

Well~ that's his prezzie over and done with! =3

So after much squealing over the hotness of Howl (ZOMG!!! HE IS SOOOOO HOT!!!!! x3) and a lot of COD for the boiiz~ =P We decided!: "Hey let's open the Kris Kringle prezzies!"

Mmm~~ After much deliberation... We decided Kenn'y should carry the weight and be Santa! x3

Abby was first up (Symo is not counted in this equation =3 just saying =P) to receive his gift from Santa =3

Abby condemning Santa to hell after receiving his nurf gun! Now he has nothing to fear!!! xP

Next up! Was Oppi!

Oppi creeping Santa~ That guy is such a creeper! =P

After a girl then a a guy.. it's finally a girl - Dior's turn!

Dior in absolute shock about her present! She's so happy that she is frozen! x3

Then Becky got her prezzie~! =3

Lol~ Becky got earrings~ She only need to wait.. oh.. another 3 months to wear them~ =P

Next up, following the girls' turn, was Roey!

Roey is being creeped out by Kenny the Creepy Santa!

Now! It's Patrick's trun! (Dx the guy was meant to get his ears pierced but he didn't!! >~<)

Patrick being buddy-buddy with Santa =3 Kelvin must be seething in envy! xP

Celine you're da man! It's your turn!! x3

Celine being gansta with Santa~

Now time for another girl! Kelvin's turn!

Kelvin delicately unwrapping his prezzie like the girl that he is =3

Mmm~ After soo many girls.. it's time for a man! Introducing Alpha Male!

Santa is terrified of Alpha Male!! Behold the oppressive force that is Alpha Male!! xP

Now the turn of the giant: Ranga!!!

Ranga peacefully opening his prezzie while Santa struggles to appear taller than the kneeling giant that is Ranga! xP

It's time for a girl again! =3 Xena!!!!

Xena having trouble juggling the box and the bag~ =3

Zomg~! Even SANTA gets a present!!! xP

Santa declares: "Who dares to challenge me!! I shall banish you all with my umbrella sword!"

MWAHAHA!!! NOW INTRODUCING GRACE'S TROLL PREZZIE!!! x3

 Grace: "Mmm~ I wonder what is in here...."

"A card... and newsparper!?"

*15 minutes later*

 

"Grrrr!!! I am gonna murder you!!!!!!"

*Another 15minutes later*

"ZOMG!!! FINALLY!!! PREZZIE!!!!!!"

After all that...............

Santa drowns in newspaper.....

But don't worry!!! Santa revives in time to give Yui her present!!!!

 Yui happily posing with the goofy Santa~ =3

THANK YOU SO MUCH SANTA *coughKennycough* for letting us steal borrow your house for the day! =3

And!!!!!......

Thank you Grace my Secret Santa for my beautiful gift~♥!!! =3 Just what I needed for next year! Glad you remembered!! ♥ THANK YOU!!!!!! 

I love my prezzie!!! ♥ =3

Now that the adventure at Kenny's House is finished!!

It's time for the 2nd thingo!!! xP

A present from my doctor~

^ well that does sound a bit weird....... so let the story start from the beginning!

You see.. I went to see my doctor last week because I am always sick and I've been feeling tired really easily no matter how much I sleep... So I decided to get a blood test to see if I was missing something...

I got the results this week~

Basically I am Iron and Vitamin D deficient ^^"

There should be 30-300ug/L of Ferritin in your blood... but I have only 24ug/L....

There should be 51-140nmol/L of Vitamin D in your blood.... but I only have 31nmol/L...

lol~ obviously it's not severe deficiency... but well... I have kinda always been weak health-wise..

So due to my deficiencies~ doctor gave me some supplements to take:

So you ask me why this is a prezzie?

Well~ 'cuz then it means that I might feel better later!! =3 So yesh! Prezzie!! x3


Anyways~ Moving on!!

LAST AND FOREMOST!!!!!

LATE NIGHT SHOPPING!!!

WHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Haha~ Can you believe that it is actually my first time going late night shopping in Australia?

There is always a first time for everything~ =3

It was sooooo much fun!! =3

I bought too amazing dresses!! They were soooo gorgeous! And it was like at some ridiculously amazing price! x3

I won't put the pics up 'cuz I like surprises =3 (for other ppl~ =3)  So you guys just have to wait 'til I actually wear them~ =3

I bought a lotta other clothes too! Including shorts and 'normal' shirts! (most of my other shirts are long =3)

A very important lesson I learnt from the cloth shopping is that... Stupid Asian shops with Asian size labels, made for Asian size people!! >~<

Srsly~ All the dresses and stuff fits fine until the zip reaches my chest area!! >~< It fits my body but not my chest!!!!!! >~< It's sooooo bloody annoying!!!!! >~< 

Lol~ and also Asian clothes are tiny.... ^^" I needa wear size 12 (<--- assuming that it actually fits my chest) whereas in non-Asian stores I am size 8 ^^"  It's bloody annoying as hell ^^"

It's not my fault that I have breasts unlike the rest of the Asian population!!! >~< 
(no offense guys ^^")

Anyway!! Enough of my rampage!! xD

Zomg!!!!! I FINALLY GOT ONE OF THE ITEMS ON MY WISHLIST!!!!! xD

BEHOLD!!!!!

My wonderful JEWELLERY BOX!!!!!!! x3

Isn't she gorgeous!? =3

And it was really cheap too! For a Jewellery box of that caliber.. it is usually at lest 50$! but this one was for the amazing prize of......

...wait for it...

!!!!!30$!!!!!

=3 It's a rare and beautiful bargain! =3

THANK YOU MOMMY!!!! FOR TAKING ME OUT LATE NIGHT SHOPPING AND PAYING FOR EVERYTHING!!!!! =3


Well~ That's my Xmas for everyone~! =3

How was your Xmas??????

I hope you guys have an amazing Xmas!!! =3

Eat lots!

Have lots of fun! x3

And most of all! Spoil yourselves a bit! =3

It's okay to be selfish once in a while~ =3

MERRY XMAS 2011!!!!!!

I hope Xmas 2012 will be just as great if not better for everyone!!! x3

 ♥W=3ndu